i am lacking of something
in life.
the feelings..
no one could explains..
how heart-pain it is.
it comes and goes.
times u made me happy
i really did appreciate it.
i love you alot.
thats what i know.
but the attitude
i received
well..
i dont know.
mayb u just express it
in a different way.
sometimes i felt so helpless.
i was too devoted,
till i neglect others who
cares about me.
as time passes by
they got sick of it.
now i only left you
to give me care and love.
well i guess God can help.
=)
its really true that
we should put God first
in everything.
thats what i learnt.
He gives us unconditional loves,
cares..
when we are being
somehow neglected.
it seems like one-sided love
but i seriously hope its
not what i think.
if you understands me
u will know that
i loves you alot.
dont take advantage of it.
i love you.

-kicked aside-
-depressed-
-souless-
-joel-



alright today is quite smooth.
went to school in the morning,
was late actually,
waiting for my parents,
today actually having UT,
so went to class late,
reached the lift,
its full of people,
so i took the stairs,
well sixth floors.
reached class,
setting up my laptop takes years,
so i request for papers to do on,
done my UT,
continue with class,
was playing DTXmania on my com
during the first meeting,
was not really listening to the facilitator,
lucky today sci has got to do with math.
at least understand what i have learnt.
that made my day,
i was like =) i can slack.
well went to Rendy's house,
during my 2nd break.
we planned to have BBQ,
at his house some day
i will bring my basketball tml to his house.
well after that went to JieYi house
its true that girls are neater.
well we went back to class
without doing any work.
i smoked my way through,
By God grace i know how to do,
that question we are doing today.
went to causeway with my fren after sch.
got the piggy bank.
bet she forgotten about it
and back home.
got food for my bro.
and here blogging.
will get back to u soon.

-joel-